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Name: dont want to live
Location: Washington, United States
Birthday: 6/7/1989
Gender: Female


Interests: how do i describe the fullnes of my life why why why knowing i will die
Expertise: I dont need love to be me im so lost in a dream why why should i keep puting myself to all thats never likely to become me who i am why cant i die falling out of my dreams i will never see how i shall cry when im dieing in side
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art


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AIM: Babygirlspices@aol.com


Member Since: 5/5/2004

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Sunday, August 08, 2004

yes yes yes i know i have not been updating in a long time but hey im sorry anyways im mad at a guy named jessee hes so stuped hes  high and he think that i didnt want to talk to him but yet i know i do but yet he dont but that makes no sence anyways cause he cant understand how i feel cause hes high off his ass dont u think uh neways i have to talk about something else cause i mite cry all i want to do is cut my arms up but i cant cause jessica will hurt me cause shes right next to me  but hey g2g love ya lots not


Thursday, July 29, 2004

hey i  know i ahve not talked in a long time but hey not my falt 

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i love ya all dont forget to not fall in the   

love is a blck hole

love hurt u to much to care so let go and fall back and forth


Thursday, July 01, 2004

Currently Playing
Killers
By Iron Maiden
see related
- killing me
 look in the past see happiness
Happiness in the future
But as i sit here
why saddness all around me
anger from everyone
death on minds of many
fear on mine
to see that anything can go wrong
at any time
But then to see your face
even in a picture
changeing everything i think about
change the way i feel
I see the blue of the ocean
the white of the summer clouds
the black of the night
and the red of the deepest darkest cut
all in your face


Love is what makes you a better person

Your hat turned backwards
Your smile brings me back to when life was fun
When you giggle my frown cracks
Our eyes meet we stare seariously
Then a smile comes
then we ignore evrything around us
when our lips meet
my mind is cleared of pain and saddness
I am put into a position of happiness or departure
I may be crazy or perverted
but my feelings for you can not be mistaken


Friday, June 11, 2004

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/I can't seem

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting/reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting how I can't seem...

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing what is real
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/confusing what is real

 


 



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